You know sometime I just want to scream at you and remind you of how poorly you treated me for 2 years. It’s such a slap in the face to see somebody you’ve wanted and loved and cared for just completely dismissing the fact UNTIL you finally get fed up and walk away. That’s when you mean more than anything to them. Thats when you become a first priority. That’s when they’ll do anything for you. That’s when they want to treat you like gold. That’s when they regret all the things they should’ve done. And lastly that’s when they love you. When you are gone. And than the pity party begins. Making me feel like shit for ending things when in reality you had months to pull your shit together. I just want to shake you and remind you of how you ended up in this predicament and that I didn’t do it to hurt you, I did it to free myself. Vent sesh complete.
you really suck. You make things that should be simple so complicated. I’m losing my mind I don’t know how much more I can handle. But the shittiest part is I know I’m better. Damn what has been my problem these last few years. It’s not the me I know I am. Bummer is I’m less than 24 hours away from being 21 and yet I still feel just as lost as I’ve always been. Time flies. Just keep consistently reminding myself that everything happens for a reason. HAVE to remember that always. It’s been the only thing to get me through a lot in my life and whether its tomorrow or 10 years from now the reason is always revealed eventually. So I just need to remember that there is a plan and it’ll all work out. Have a wonderful evening my late night tumblrs.